Saturday, October 20, 2012

Guided Meditation: Just Who Do You Think You Are?





LECTIONARY TEXTS: Job 38: 38:1-7, 34-38; Psalm 104; Mark 10: 35-45



REFLECTIONS ON TWO ANCIENT POEMS (Job 38 and Psalm 104)

In response to Job’s pitiable pleas, the thundering voice of God might sound to us like “the great and powerful” Oz addressing Dorothy. I can almost hear the voice of the God-Behind-The-Curtains booming back at Job: “What gives you the right to question your lot in life? ‘Where were you when I laid the foundations of the earth?’ Have you forgotten who I am?”

Maybe Job has.  Maybe we have.  Maybe the writer of Job has forgotten God’s tender compassion.

Or maybe the ancient storyteller is simply describing a very human moment when shallow theology built on fairy tales, really, has left us unprepared for the terrible parts of life.

Maybe you and I come to God expecting a magical wizard who can send us home to a safe place—but terrible times have no simple solutions.  And sometimes we may need to work through still unresolved childhood or young adulthood issues of self-identity and self-acceptance. But we expect God to hand out wisdom, love, and courage as if they are items on a shelf. Instead, back into the scary world God sends us, sniveling like a cowardly lion, feeling as loveless as a tin man, as clueless as a scarecrow. We find ourselves in dark regions far off the beaten yellow brick path to face our lacks and losses, to learn who we are, to give up what we thought mattered.  We’re not in Kansas anymore. Before we can “ease on down the road" into adult faith, before we can make the journey into what Richard Rohr calls “the second half of life,”[i] we may need to think of  God as something other than a cheap magician and approach prayer as something other than a plea to a good wizard.

“Have you forgotten who I am?” God asks me.  Like Job, I, too, often name God as Creator, although I understand the basic scientific principles of evolution.  I still see the primary works of the Spirit as ongoing creation and connection—creation meaning life; connection meaning love. 

Life and love are risky enterprises. If constancy were the prevailing law of the universe, there would be nothing new created, there could be no life. 

So if God is that creative, life-giving force, then there must also be within the life of God some element of randomness and freedom, because both constancy and surprise must exist for life to continue.  Without risk and unpredictability, nothing new could happen. Without the accident of genetic mutations, for instance, humans could not have evolved.  Without chance there can be no change.  The very “laws” of science, it turns out, are not without exceptions.[ii]

I don’t imagine Creator God to be the designer of a fixed road without dangers, but more like the force that imbues us with and lures us on in love and growth.  Although God does not create the pitfalls, God’s creative and loving spirit can redeem those falls, making it possible for us to transcend the terrors and hurts and move into a deeper spiritual realm.  Christianity, at its core, affirms that death leads to rebirth.

Each of us finds a way—sometimes various ways—sometimes mutually conflicting theories—to understand how a loving and powerful God can allow suffering.   The theodicy question is not, for me, entirely resolvable. But the God I serve neither causes suffering nor leave us alone in our pain.  I believe that ordinary or extraordinary healings and rescues occur.  But even when they don’t, the loving and life-giving Spirit keeps moving through the universe through a persistent agenda of life and love.  

Annie Dillard also believes God “does not direct the universe” but “underlies it.” She offers: “The more we wake to holiness, the more of it we give birth to, the more we introduce, expand and multiple it on earth, the more God is ‘on the field’.”  But Dillard has given up on the God who is “that tasking and antiquated figure . . . who sits on the throne of judgment frowning and figuring, and who with the strength of his arm dishes out human fates, in the form of cancer or cash, to 5.9 billion people—to teach, dazzle, rebuke, or try us, one by one, and to punish or reward us, day by day, for our thoughts, words, and deeds.”[iii]  Most of us would agree.  Though our prayer life may suggest otherwise.  

I’m glad the Bible shows God can take our complaints, the stern rebuff from Job’s god notwithstanding.  In fact, the Psalms are full of complaints lifted up to God in faith that God is willing and able to hear all that.  Last Sunday’s Psalm, you’ll remember, began with “My God, my God, why have you forsaken?”  The very words Jesus quoted from the cross.  And words we can imagine coming from Job.

But the lectionary has fittingly paired today’s reading from Job with a praise Psalm that uses the same imagery but a joyful tone in counterpoint to Job’s bitterness.  In our Psalm it is not God who has to assert God’s creative power but the human Psalmist who celebrates it.

So while complaining to God is a legitimate form of prayer, praise is also necessary and equally unstoppable.  We cannot keep from expressing gratitude and awe, even in dire moments, if we gaze upon creation, if we join in the force for love and life. 

I’m not a “Praise the Lord” Christian.  When I hear religious clichés, I imagine folks lifting up the communion cup and toasting their good fortunes, forgetting the chalice holds both joy and sorrow.   

But praise—and its cousin, gratitude, —are important spiritual practices. Praise is an ego-denying practice.  I do need to praise God.  I need to express joy and awe and thanks for this world.  I need to recognize that I am not the center of the universe.  I need to acknowledge The More that is beyond me and yet is sustaining me--because of who I am and because of who God is.  The Eucharistic liturgy says it well:  “It is right to give our thanks and praise.” 

With the words from Job and the Psalmist fresh in our ears, words of complaint and praise, we prepare now to express our petitions and thanks. 

PRAYERS OF THE PEOPLE . . .



[i] Rohr, Richard.  Falling Upward: A Spirituality of the Second Half of Life.  San Francisco: Jossey-Bass, 2011.
[ii] These general ideas are influenced by John F. Haught, who sees God as vulnerable love luring us into the future rather than as an intelligent designer. Thus, evolutionary biology is compatible with Christianity. See Haught’s God After Darwin: A Theology of Evolution. Westview Press, 2007.
[iii] Kathryn Huey (http://www.ucc.org/worship/samuel/october-21-2012.html) quotes from "Holy Sparks: A Prayer for the Silent God" in the collection, Best Spiritual Writing 2000.


GUIDED REFLECTION ON THE GOSPEL LESSON: 

Having heard today’s Gospel Reading, I invite you to hear the story again as a guided prayer.  I’ll reread the scripture, pausing at 3 different points to allow for reflection.

1.    James and John, the sons of Zebedee, came forward to [Jesus] and said to him, "Teacher, we want you to do for us whatever we ask of you."

Let this simple stunning demand speak to you about your own prayer life.  Jesus might well have responded to their question with: "Who do you think you are?" or "Who do you think I am?"  He did not, as we'll see in the next verse.  For now, let's reflect on the way we tend to approach God in prayer.  (SILENCE.)  Let’s quietly rest in God’s presence for the next few moments: no agenda, no demands.

SILENCE

2.    And Jesus said to them, "What is it you want me to do for you?" And they said to him, "Grant us to sit, one at your right hand and one at your left, in your glory." But Jesus said to them, "You do not know what you are asking. Are you able to drink the cup that I drink, or be baptized with the baptism that I am baptized with?" They replied, "We are able." Then Jesus said to them, "The cup that I drink you will drink; and with the baptism with which I am baptized, you will be baptized; but to sit at my right hand or at my left is not mine to grant, but it is for those for whom it has been prepared."

Reflect now on what you really ask of God.  Is it possible we don’t know what we are asking?  In the Bible the cup and baptism can mean both blessing and hardship.  With blessing there is challenge.  Are we willing to accept both?

SILENCE


3.    When the [other] ten [disciples] heard this, they began to be angry with James and John. So Jesus called them and said to them, "You know that among the Gentiles those whom they recognize as their rulers lord it over them, and their great ones are tyrants over them. But it is not so among you; but whoever wishes to become great among you must be your servant, and whoever wishes to be first among you must be slave of all. For the Son of Man came not to be served but to serve, and to give his life a ransom for many."

Once again Jesus reverses the world’s ways and says that to be great we must serve.  If it is comfortable for you to do so, you might pull down the kneeler in front of you to get into that traditional prayer posture, the posture of a servant.  With bowed head or bent knee, reflect on Jesus’s way of leading by serving.  How might we at Open Table do a better job of enacting that visionary and focused yet humbly serving model of leadership?   (silence) How can we as individuals measure our lives by Jesus’s standard of greatness? Consider how we as individuals sometimes, for instance, expect others to do things to accommodate our preferences, to ‘serve’ us?  Isilence) Now think about people you might be serving.  How might you as a family member, as a neighbor, as a responsible voter consider “the least” and serve their interests in the name of Jesus?

SILENCE




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